Ping-Pong of Faith


On December 27th I had to attend the funeral of my 23 year old nephew Aaron Esposito.  Aaron was killed in a car crash on December 21, on his way home from a meeting in Indiana.  It was an extremely hard week for me and my family, and to tell the truth, I am not sure how my brother or sister-in-law held up so well.  Parents are not supposed to bury their children, it’s just too hard to imagine.

But in a very spiritual way the process was a healing one, and a deeply moving one. Aaron lived a life that most of us would only dream about, and I did not find that out until his death. How sad.

But Aaron’s death is also a lesson, a lesson on life and how to live it. Aaron’s life was not a charmed one; he had a hard life for his short time here on earth. His parents were not, as we would say, always there for him. But Aaron chose to live a life that was productive and healthy; he chose to allow God in to his life and to use his passions to make this world a better place, one person at a time.

At his funeral the minister read from his journal, and one line stands out to me, Aaron wrote a simple line, only a few words, four to be exact, but to me the four words covers it all.

“Ping-Pong of fear”…..

WOW, what a powerful statement, and what a true testimony to how life is. We all deal with fear; its part of the human condition, the difference is how we deal with it, what we make of it. Aaron chose to use his fear for the betterment of himself and others.  Others choose to allow their fears to control them, and still others deny their fears, choose to not see them at all.

Fear is part of life; it gives us clues to how to live. We use fear as a way to help us choose the path in life we wish to take. Some of us face them head on; others of us choose to walk around them. We see this is our everyday life, in almost all we do. Who hasn’t been fearful of a new job, or a new home? How about a new school or a new life, Fear is the glue that keeps us grounded and it is also the glue that keeps us standing still. Fear can be a motivator or it can be destabilizing aspect that sets your life in to a downward spin. Fear is a controlling emotion; fear is a fact of life.

Aaron stated that fear was like a ping-pong game, a battle between the two sides of fear, to embrace it or to ignore it. Aaron chose to embrace it, to face it head on. Now I am sure Aaron did not always do this, in fact I am sure that at times Aaron ran from choosing to ignore it. But the simple fact that he saw it as part of his life, that he wrote it down in his journal and named it as he saw it states a lot. Aaron knew that he had fear, that fear was part of who he was, and Aaron named it called it out and gave his fears an identity.

Aaron was a sportsman; he loved sports, so to call fear a “Ping-Pong Match” placed fear in its proper place, making it a game, a competition, one that Aaron could win. Like any sport you have to practice, study and learn.  Aaron did that, he read the bible, self help books and motivation materials, and he looked deep within to find the strength to help him in the match and he looked to God to fortify him and to send His grace upon him.

Aaron’s journal contained notes of all sorts, notes on his Amway business, notes on his personal life and quotes and passages from the bible. Aaron’s journal showed how he knew his life was not a patchwork of separate Aarons, but rather how the pieces of patchwork created the one Aaron. Aaron understood that everything he did affected every aspect of his life, and affected everyone in his life. The fear may have held him back some, but from what I know of him, and from what I learned of him, Aaron used the fear not to hold him back, but to catapult him forward.

Aaron will be missed by many, over 600 people attended his service on Saturday, on Friday there had to have been over 300 people throughout the day. The words of kindness and gratitude towards Aaron was overwhelming, and the tears shed for him could have filled a river, But Aaron’s life was not one of regrets but rather opportunities. His passing will leave a hole in many souls but his legacy will fill many more.

Aaron I miss you and I love you, may you rest in the peace of God the Father and may you be forever in His glory.

May we, Aaron’s family and friends find comfort in Aaron’s everlasting love; May God bless us and keep us all.

Love

Uncle Paul

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About Paul Sposite

Paul Sposite - Life Coach I began my career as an instructor. As an instructor there are two basic requirements. You have to know yourself, so you know where you’re drawing your inspiration from. And you have to actively listen to the others, and then respond to the subtext of what they are saying. In learning about myself I started to focus a lot on my students, how they learned, what questions they were asking and how I could best modify my methods to best serve them. I believe that if you use your real life problems/issues as insights to the issues you need to heal, you’ll grow. From my experience in the classroom, creating curriculum and material to support my training, I developed an interest in how people process information. This interest turned into my interest in Life Coaching.
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2 Responses to Ping-Pong of Faith

  1. Marvin says:

    I am touched most by these…

    Aaron stated that fear was like a ping-pong game, a battle between the two sides of fear, to embrace it or to ignore it. Aaron chose to embrace it, to face it head on.

    Yes, we all have fear.

    Christ was afraid too.

    God bless you and your family, Brother Paul.

  2. Paul Sposite says:

    Marvin;

    Thank you for your kind words they truly do help to heal in dificult times

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